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2017

I wonder what you’d think if you knew

If you knew
All the times i memorialized you in my poems
All the times i eulogized your still moving body
All the times i analyzed our previous conversations like a cipher i haven’t the skills to decode
All the times i stayed up reliving our last interaction

All the times

All the times i was left to think about what you were thinking 
All the times i was left to wonder if I was the only one you treated this way
All the times i was left with only the shame and guilt of having said your name at all

All the times

All the time i wonder if you remember me
Sometimes i wonder how you could ever forget